My father called me on Friday, February 17, 2017 a
little after 5 pm to tell me that my mother had passed away. She was 71 years old. She had lain down to rest and my father was
in his home office down the hallway from their bedroom. He heard her loudly gasp and when he arrived
by her side he knew she was gone. He tried administering CPR, but the height of
their bed along with his Parkinson’s prevented him from being able to do so effectively. By the time the paramedics arrived they realized that there was no
hope in even trying resuscitation efforts.
My father shared with me that five days earlier her
body was going into weird contortions and spasms and he gave her a blessing, in
faith, using the priesthood authority that he believes he has been given. During the blessing he heard a voice tell him
to release my mother from this life. My
dad couldn’t do it. I’m not sure many people who have loved a spouse for as
long as my dad has my mom could have either.
To
everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven; a time
to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that
which is planted; … a time to heal; …a time to build up; a time to weep, and a
time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance
Back when I was an active and believing Latter-Day
Saint Mormon I had great comfort and “carnal security” in
the fact that she had received her endowments and been sealed to my dad in the
Salt Lake Temple. I believed then that
“Families are Forever” and that the spirits of those who have been members of
the LDS Church would be taken to “Spirit Paradise”.
I have no such comfort today. I can understand why Alma, in the Book of
Mormon, inquired diligently of the Lord:
And
now I would inquire what becometh of the souls of men from this time of death
to the time appointed for the resurrection? Now whether there is more than one
time appointed for men to rise it mattereth not; for all do not die at once,
and this mattereth not; all is as one day with God, and time only is measured
unto men. Therefore, there is a time appointed unto men that they shall rise
from the dead; and there is a space between the time of death and the
resurrection. And now, concerning this space of time, what becometh of the
souls of men is the thing which I have inquired diligently of the Lord to know;
and this is the thing of which I do know. And when the time cometh when all
shall rise, then shall they know that God knoweth all the times which are
appointed unto man.
Now,
concerning the state of the soul between death and the resurrection—Behold, it
has been made known unto me by an angel, that the spirits of all men, as soon
as they are departed from this mortal body, yea, the spirits of all men,
whether they be good or evil, are taken home to that God who gave them life. And
then shall it come to pass, that the spirits of those who are righteous are
received into a state of happiness, which is called paradise, a state of rest,
a state of peace, where they shall rest from all their troubles and from all
care, and sorrow.
I have no assurance in regards to my mother. I do not know if God judged her righteous and
that she is, even now, in a state of paradise where she is resting from all
troubles, care and sorrow. I hope that
this is the case, because above all else she craved peace and rest.
Joseph Smith said, “When you climb up a ladder, you must begin at the bottom, and ascend
step by step, until you arrive at the top; and so it is with the principles of
the gospel—you must begin with the first, and go on until you learn all the
principles of exaltation. But it will be a great while after you have passed
through the veil before you will have learned them. It is not all to be
comprehended in this world; it will be a great work to learn our salvation and
exaltation even beyond the grave”
Joseph F. Smith, at the age of 80, had been sick for
many months and felt very close to the Spirit of the Lord. On the night of
October 3, 1918 while pondering on 1 Peter chapters 3 and 4 concerning Christ’s
preaching to the spirits in prison, his eyes were opened and he saw the spirit
world. The next day, after the LDS Church General Conference, he dictated the
vision to his son, Joseph Fielding Smith.
This vision was later canonized and added to the Doctrine and Covenants
in 1976 and is known as section 138. I believe that Joseph F. Smith really did
have this vision. What is not clear is
how much of what is now D&C 138 is a correct interpretation of what God was
trying to teach him. There is, in my mind, concern that what was “seen” and “understood”
was interpreted and flavored by his belief that the LDS Church was the only
true church on the earth as well as the doctrine and beliefs he possessed at
the time of the vision. Since there is no voice recording of his dictation to
his son, nor other witnesses to the proceeding, there is also concern in my
mind as to how much of what is now recorded was enlarged, added upon, etc. by
his son, Joseph Fielding Smith’s agenda to strengthen the Brethren’s
position in the Church as well as the missionary program of the Church.
One thing I have been learning in life is that when
God tries to give us more light and knowledge we invariably interpret it based
on our current understanding and therefore we generally interpret things partially
or even take them to incorrect conclusions. It must be an enormous task for God
to teach us, yet he patiently continues to do so whenever we ask to be taught.
I have lost sleep over the past few weeks worrying
about, praying about and asking the Lord to give me comfort in regards to my
mother and asking Him to teach me. Slowly, He is teaching me. I know so very little. I believe that the
spirits of all men and women, whether good or evil, are taken back to a world
of spirits after their mortal body dies. While there they still have the
opportunity to learn about the Savior, to repent of their sins and to believe on
His name. Nowhere in scripture can I find that the spirit world is divided into
separate spheres. Rather, I believe that
Joseph F. Smith saw one spirit world, much like the world we now live in, there
are righteous and good people co-mingled with the proud and rebellious and they
that do wickedly. Those trying to be
valiant in their testimony of Jesus hear His voice when he calls to them and
find themselves in the light, or in other words, paradise. Those who cannot hear the Savior are in darkness
in this life as well as the next, or in other words, prison. According to
Joseph F. Smith’s vision, all spirits look upon the absence of their bodies as
a bondage. I believe that the world of spirits resembles the Telestial Kingdom
or the world in which we presently reside.
In this life and in the next the only way to be free from the bondage of
sin and unbelief is to search for the Savior, to hear Him,
to see
Him, to know Him.
Christ sends His true messengers to us in this life
as well as in the next. Their message is the same: faith in the Lord, Jesus
Christ, repentance and baptism.
I hope that my mom has found the peace and joy that
can only come through our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.
